complexity
she's back home again very late... for a secondary 2 kid in the family to be back home at 2300++ is really too late and dangerous for her... sometimes i really do wonder if we are the ones who dun understand her or is it the other way round?
reminds me of my own old times... things really gets so complex when u're transiting from primary school to secondary school...
how can i or what can i do to really help her?
the only question that i kept asking myself constantly...
i've tried many ways to try keep the balance in the family balanced... but things still do happen... issit the method that we're using wrong? or issit our understanding between the different generations gap is crumbling?
at the moment, i do not have an answer to it...
sleepless night..
gosh... it's been one of those sleepless night.. my biological clock has been so awfully distorted that I wanna turn things back right it was when i was recovering from my operation many years back..
manage to have a gd early sleep today actually until the loud laughters and chattering conversation in the living room woke me up... it's my sis again... omg... told her to tone down coz it's bloody 1230 already!!! everyone's sleeping le and she's still talking like it's 3pm in the afternoon! coughing at the same time!!! what the hell is she thinking of??? wah kaoz eh...
and then wat happened next was that i walked out of my room to give her a piece of my mind...
she went back to room and 'secretly' continue watching tv in the very same room where mum is trying to get rest for yet another busy day ahead tmw... I can't seem to understand this 'youngster' anymore... she can't get her grades well to even a pass and no significant effort has been seen to make things better... holidays has started and i bet she has barely touched her homeworks...
and now the best thing is that I am now here at bloody 0138am posting on my blog coz i couldnt get to sleep due to the 'wakeup call' by her... all my plans to turn things round tonight has all been wrecked!!! argh! then came a nature call from my stomach as i try hard to make myself fall back to slumber... damn it! had too early my dinner @ 5+, after zuanye's graduation ceremony...
sigh.. sadly and hungrily, i went to cook a packet of noodles... and now here posting all these...
and yup.. its just started raining now outside... like a little response to all that had happened earlier on...
pretty drama huh.. damn... i am still so fedup...
excited but disappointed..
as in my last entry, i was sooo excited abt the new year and the stuffs that lies ahead of me for the year...
but nothing has gone right, not even one...
thus all excitement has gone down to nothing but disappointment and despair...
desperation I would say is what probably something that had been laid for me for the year...
no luck with job search..
everyone around me getting unhappy and sigh... not a single thing went right...
just hopefully, things will be so much better in the last half of the year...
teck, maybe that chinese new year horoscope thingy is pretty true afterall...
hah...
zhu, I'm sorry for everything that i had done wrong...
pls do pardon me at times...
mum, I'm terribly sorry the most to you... although i know you will never see this but i have till now really owe you soo much and too much... I promise you that in the near future once all this bad luck of mine has gone, nothing will be like that as now...
shuwei, i know i've been hard on you.. just wanna know i was really pretty disappointed with you in quite some ways.. just hope things will be getting better for you... i know it's really very hard in such times coz i went thru the worst time of my life in that same moment as yours too..
zuanye, hey! very BIG congratulations to your new found job and hope you'll be working smoothly without much difficulties, but well... on the other hand, you'll actually learn things only when u meet with difficulties isn't it? hah.. wat i talking man...
in anyway Best of Luck!
and lastly, i hope all of my friends out there have smooth sailing days ahead... best of luck and hope to see you guys soon...
we've been very very very very lost in contact already for quite some of them... coz i have been toooo anti-social for the past few years le... thinking back... it really feels sad to have 'lost' such gd friends whom I had really precious memories with... although some might not even be in singapore already...
well.. untill the next post... i hope soon...
take care!
Cheers~
new updates..
added a tagboard to my this little extremely out-dated blog..
pls feel free to tag me whenever u like it...
I will try to revive this blog asap..
pretty lazy to blog nowadays..
too much stuffs on mind...
however, many are much too private to myself to voice it all out here..
but i'll try to have some inputs here...
thanks..
stuffs updated..
1) Tagboard added to blog
2) Photos uploaded and updated over @ -The AHTOOT&XIAOZHU STORY- (check it out at the side bar on the right under LINKS)
